Happy place.

I wish that for just one second, i was happy.
people think i am always happy, but honestly i'm not.
& i hate that, all that ever comes to me is drama.
and i honestly think i don't deserve, like at all.
I wish that just one day, I can be in a happy place.
where there's no drama, no girls to start something with.
Just me, myself and I, being happy, that would be all that counts.
I'm so tired, of being mistreated, its not funny anymore.
someone tell me please, what to do? who to talk to?
better yet, if it helps.. where to run away to?
what can i do, so that all my problems,
and everything on my mind, goes away..
and so, i don't have to think of this anymore.
I need a place that i can go to, where no one can bother me.
Its just.. i'm done playing games. i want a new life.
I want the old me to be dead & gone.

i'm turning my back, on what i've become.
is it too late to say, this is horrible?